Tuesday, July 31, 2007

July 31

730: Mixed Greens w/ Vermont Lite Cheddar, Balsamic Vinegar; Skim Milk & Honey Bunches of Oats (g)
945: 1/2 Peanut Butter Sandwich (cv)
1100: Honey Nut Cheerios; Dry Roasted Sunflower Seeds
100: Parmesan, Garlic, and Olive Oil Soy Crisps; Mixed Greens w/ Vermont Lite Cheddar, Tomato, Craisins
400: 1/2 Peanut Butter Sandwich
530-700: Chinese Squash; Tofu & 2 Egg Whites; Big Bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats w/ Skim Milk; Jalapeño Smokehouse Almonds; Mannnny Soy Crisps
1100: Mixed Greens w/ Balsamic Vinegar, Vermont Lite Cheddar (g)

20 min Stairmaster (HR was already much elevated from having to digest lots of food, this workout was killer)
1:15 Abs

Monday, July 30, 2007

July 30

730: Mixed Greens w/ Vermont Cheddar, Sunflower Seeds, Turkey Breast, Balsamic Vinegar, Tomatoes (g)
915: Bigelow Cranberry Apple Herbal Tea
1000: 1/2 PB Sandwich (cv)
1245: Mixed Greens w/ Vermont Cheddar, Sunflower Seeds, Turkey Breast, Crasins, Tomatoes; 1/2 PB Sandwich
315: Honey Nut Cheerios & Sunflower Seeds
600: Chinese Squash; Lox, tomato, cheddar on Toasted WW Bread; Almonds; Celery & Tofu; Watermelon; Sunflower Seeds; Sweet Mung Bean Soup
900: Lots of 70% Dark Chocolate
1015: Peanut Butter; Skim Milk & Honey Bunches of Oats; Sweet Mung Bean Soup; Vermont Lite Cheddar

Finished Harry Potter

Spells I've done on N.>
Wingardium Leviosa (pick her up)
Expelliarmus (pulled the pencil out of her hand)
Alohamora (just for kicks - funny to think what would happen if you did it on a person)
Lumos (cell phone)
Aquamenti (sneezed, couldn't help it)
Expecto Patronum (made stuffed, white, fuzzy "Sealy" float before us)

Sunday, July 29, 2007

July 29

900: Skim Milk; Peanut Butter Sandwich (v)
1115: Organic Mixed Greens w/ Balsamic Vinegar; Egg White; Semi-pickled Veggie Medley of Cucumbers, Carrots, Turnip (chinese dish); Cherries, few almonds
200-600: Vermont Cheddar & Diced Tomato melted onto Flatout Bread; Far too much Peanut Butter, PB Sandwich, Onion & Garlic Almonds; Semi-pickled Veggie Medley of Cucumbers, Carrots, Turnip; 70% Dark Chocolate (g)
930-1100: Semi-pickled Veggie Medley of Cucumbers, Carrots, Turnip; 2 Bowls Sweet Mung Bean Soup; Dry Roasted Sunflower Seeds; Watermelon

Kayaking> 30 min-ish, same dist as last time
Swim> somewhere btwn a 300 and a 400, maybe- tried open water for the first time, connected my kayak to my dad's- he pulled it while I swam alongside- w/ my head out of the water so not aqua-dynamic; it was exciting, water very salty, switched among free, and a little breast and back

Saturday, July 28, 2007

July 28-p

900: 2 Egg Whites; Peanut Butter & Frozen blueberries, blackberries, raspberries on WW Bread (cv)
1100: Lettuce; 2 Egg Whites (boiled Chinese-style in soy sauce-like soup); sampled peach salsa on tortilla, and fiber one cereal bar -too sweet for me (c) (g)
200: Organic Mixed Greens w/ Tomato, 75% Lite Cheese Balls, Balsamic Vinegar (acidity slows down digestion and keeps blood sugar levels more stable), few Emerald Onion & Garlic Almonds :)
515: Lite Vermont Cheddar to not go into the party ravenous
645-1045: Tofu & Fish Dish; Tarot Root Pancakes; Lettuce Wraps stuffed w/ Sea Stick, Spicy Cabbage & other veggies, Shrimp, Scallops; Watermelon; Chinese Squash; Another Tofu Dish; 2 bowls of Mung Bean and other Hearty Grain Soup...
100: Cheddar Soy Crisps; Blueberry Yogurt; 70% Dark Chocolate

I guess I can start tracking my supplement intake. All are 1/2 doses.
(cv) = calcium/vitamin
(c) = calcium
(v) = vitamin
(g) = glucosamine

Some waltz, singing in Chinese, Apples to Apples (I'm violent, virtuous, and something else)
Started reading the 7th Harry Potter

Friday, July 27, 2007

July 27

745: Lox, tomato, ff cheddar on Toasted WW Bread; Bing Cherries
900: Lipton Tea
1015: 1/2 PB Sandwich
115: 3 Egg Whites; Lettuce; PB Sandwich
330: Cookies & Cream Light Ice Cream Bar (Blue Bunny)
545: Tuna Wrap & Tuna Sandwich w/ Mayo; Seaweed; Carrots; Sunflower Seeds
930: Watermelon; Strawberry Yogurt w/ Grape Nuts; Cheddar Soy Crisps
1130: Bit of PB, few cherries
1230: Tuna, Egg White

At meals where I got no calcium, I take 1/2 a Calcium Pill (about 250 mg). Calcium carbonate's not nearly as good as the other kind of added calcium or even better, dairy. Vitamin D plays a big role, probably, and maybe protein or sugars found in dairy promote absorbtion. In any case, it's taken with food. So though some days it looks like I'm not getting my calcium in, I'm supplementing.

I take an average of 1.5 (75% recommended amount - I figure I'm about 75% of a person anyways) Move Free pills for my joints. I just to just average 1, but I stepped it up, and I think I'm doing better with the increased dose. As with the Calcium, I try to space it out, and it should be taken with food.

Lastly, I do 1/2 a multivitamin - the calcium added kind when I have limited or no dairy, and a non-kind when I already got dairy (cost issue). I take 1/2 because I figure I get tons of vitamins from many of the other foods I eat. And whatever vitamins I do get, since I take them with fat (big absorbtion helper) and have them spaced out (to the point where I avoid eating them at meals already rich in vitamins and instead take them with low-vitamin/fruit/veggie meals).
With antioxidants from tea, they're great anti-inflammatories (hopefully good for the joints), but it's recommended that you wait 2-hrs-ish after vitamin intake, if you want to get the full effect of the vitamin. Green tea kicks black tea's butt in Aox content.

Also, I try to avoid caffine. I might have one caffinated beverage on a paper night. Even with cramming for exam nights, I've begun to avoid it, since it would likely make me more anxious or keep me from getting the couple hours of sleep I could before test time. But being dependent on anything like caffine or drugs or alcohol (moreso even than I am on food sometimes) makes one weak, in my opinion. It's costly, since once you're hooked, that item's got a direct channel into your wallet for the rest of your life. I think it's sad. People might get hooked just because they do it at first to fit in or feel grown-up. In my opinion, you don't need that stuff. Want energy? Fuel up the right way, on nutrition-packed superfoods. Exercise - get that adrenaline (one thing I don't mind being addicted to) and endorphins going. Want release? Again, running or other sports - amazing. The normal high is great, and then it's taken to another level when you've got the team aspect going for you too - the comraderie and extra drive to push yourself and not let your teammates down is awesome. Singing is great too. Just my opinion... Oh yeah, my original point was that Green Tea has much less caffine than Black tea. Another reason to go green.

Run> 2.79 mi, 22:34, 8:05/mi; 236 Cal
Abs> 45 min

Thursday, July 26, 2007

July 26

730: Uncapped Turkey Sandwich w/ ff cheddar, lettuce, onion, tomato, horseradish dijon; Peanut Butter
945: Sweet Potato Chips
1100: Honey Nut Cheerios
1245: Full-Circle Ranch Soy Crisps; Uncapped Turkey Sandwich w/ lettuce, onion, tomato
245: Vanilla Yogurt (more sugar than the sweetener-saturated kind I usually have is more enjoyable and doesn't leave you with a funny taste in your mouth)
600: Salmon; Honey Wheat Toast w/ Peanut Butter; Cabbage, Broccoli, Onion, Carrot Lite Stir-fry; Watermelon
800: Honey Bunches of Oats w/ Almonds + Milk; Egg; Chinese Squash
1000: Soy Crisps

Swim> 25 laps; 35:10 (tired and just wanted something light today)

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

GEAR GUIDE: Stability Ball

My Chair:
Mine doesn't get used too much. It's mainly used as a chair after workouts when I want to refuel but don't want to get real furniture nasty. It does feel strangely good to sit in it- strangely because it's really good for posture. Some suggest replacing your chair at work with it, since its instability activates abs more, so you're exerting yourself a little while you sit and unknowingly improve your posture.

Better on Body:
With some exercises, it provides the support you need, like with side crunches. With the stability ball between your knees, it doesn't hurt my legs as much.

At a spin/abs class, the instructor had us do some great leg/back stretches only possible on the ball. Felt good.

It does provide a more effective workout, I think, and you can feel the increased crunch difficulty when you use the ball, not only on legs or whatever else but on the normal crunch muscles too.

Little Use:
Probably not the ball's fault. My plyos mat is at school, and here, I have the gym I can use so that I don't have to do abs on my carpet, so I stick with that most of the time.

July 25

730: Lox, tomato, ff cheddar on Toastesd WW Bread; Spinach Pancake
1015: Chocolate Protein Cookies
1145: Bigelow Hibiscus & Rose Hips Herb Tea
1245: Uncapped Turkey Sandwich w/ onions, lettuce, tomato; Honey Nut Cheerios
245: Chocolate Protein Cookies, few Jalapeño Smokehouse Almonds
615: Salmon; Sauteed Green Beans; Post Selects Apple Harvest Cereal; Sweet Potato Chips
1000: Cheese, Pepper, & Onion Quesadilla; Watermelon; Peanut Butter; Egg

Run> Megaloop: 2.73 mi... it was 3.22 last time, so I guess the clouds or trees cutting off satellite makes it not read your mileage then. Anyways, 23:00; 8:25/mi; 155 Cal... I guess we'll just focus on time, since it was the same distance as yesterday's run. Faster = better! Felt strong today- limited joints complaining. Kind of like the old days. Oh wait, I did set it to pause the timer when I was at 0 mph. Maybe it shut that off, so my time's actually longer. Sad.
Bike> 22:46, 14.6 mph, 5.54 mi; 165 Cal

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Recipe: Sweet Potato Chips

1 Sweet Potato
1/2 tbsp EVOO

1. Slice it up into 1/4 cm chips.
2. Coat aluminum foil w/ EVOO, rub chips in it.
3. Broil for 18 min, flipping the chips in the middle.

For an extra kick, sprinkle:
a. Cinnamon
b. Cayanne Pepper

July 24

730: Skim Milk; Protein Cookies
945: Bigelow Pumpkin Spice Black Tea
1015: Blue Diamond Jalapeno Smokehouse Almonds
115: Spinach Pancake; Skim Milk; Protein Cookies
315: Protein Cookies
630: Lox, tomato, ff cheddar on Toasted WW Bread; Cantaloupe; Jalapeno Smokehouse Almonds; Glazed Walnuts
1000: Turkey Wrap w/ lettuce, tomato, horseradish dijon, flatout flatbread; few Cherries

My homemade, original recipe Protein Cookies... kind of nice in that they're pretty good for you and can satisfy a chocolate craving, but it's also sort of nasty tasting sometimes. Good for breakfast when any sort of semi-sweet, carby thing is what you crave. Milk's nearly a must. But you need to tell yourself it's a yummy dessert to enjoy it, haha. It is veritably good when you get a chocolate chip in that bite. I don't know whether it's the protein/complex carb blend that keeps you full, or because it really does taste nasty and makes you lose your appetite that it keeps hunger at bay.

3.22 mi Megaloop; 7:25/mi; 23:51 min; 260 Cal
1 hr Abs, including the 4 min plank!!!

Lunch break trip to Charles Pinckney Nat'l Historic Site (used to live on CP's former land), ran the "trail," all 1/8 mile of it. Short but woody and rustic, made me feel like I was in a LOST scene.

Monday, July 23, 2007

July 23-p

745: Breakfast Burrito (Sundried Tomato Flatout Bread, Tomato, Eggs, ff Cheddar, onion, guac)
930: Cherries & Walnuts
1100: Bigelow Cranberry Apple Herb Tea
1230: Lox, tomato, sharp cheddar on toasted WW Bread; Lettuce
300: Honey Nut Cheerios
600-900: Peanut Butter; Sauteed Haricot Verts; Salmon; Almonds; Broccoli; Cherries; Double Chocolate Chip Pancake w/ Glazed Walnuts; Baked Flatbread Tortilla Chips w/ Guacamole (tomato, onion, avacado, lime, garlic)
1200: PB Sandwich; Vermont Sharp Cheddar; Smoked Almonds; 70% Dark Chocolate

July 22

830: Honey Bunches of Oats w/ Almonds, Skim Milk
145-300: Mushroom, Peanut, Tempeh dish; Broccoli; Papaya; 1/2 egg; Watermelon; Sweet Red Bean Soup; Sauteed Haricot Verts
500-1000: Emerald Dry Roasted Almonds; Figs; PB on WW Honey Toast; Cherries; Guacamole-flavored Tortilla Chips; Shrimp; Snap Peas & Zuchinni
1100: Trail Mix Balance Bare Bar; Double Chocolate Cookies

Ate allllllllll day. Big quantities. Man.

Playing The Fray's "How to Save a Life" & Vanessa Carlton's "A Thousand Miles" from http://my-piano.blogspot.com

Tilt & Tumble Disk Shuffle Board on Marble Table; Outburst w/ the gang

Wii bowling, tennis, golf

Saturday, July 21, 2007

July 21-p

900: Avacado, Cheese, Tomato, and Onion Melt on WW Bread - awesome; Double Chocolate Cookie
215: Canteloupe; Veggie Stew (sprouts, onions, napa, tomato); Avacado & Cheese Toasted on WW Bread
630: Stovetop Popcorn; Raw Broccoli; Salmon; Double Chocolate Cookies
1000: 1/2 Personal Pita Pizza (flatout sundried tomato pita w/ ragu garlic and onion tomato sauce, tomatoes, and onions); 1/2 Turkey Wrap w/ lettuce, tomato, dijon; Double Chocolate Cookies

Wow, a four-meal day!

I've read it before, but it never occured to me how powerful it is: variety leads to overeating. There are some foods I really enjoy, and I might as well really eat it all day. That way, I don't feel deprived at all, and I can stop a lot easier. I'm satisfied, period. Incredible.

Cycling> 15 mph; 42 min; 10.56 mi, went on every loop in BYD
Kayaking> 2.4 mph; 44 min; 1.74 mi, with family, rode a single, docked at the county park, took pics, on return pulled parents for a little bit

Friday, July 20, 2007

July 20

730: Honey Bunches of Oats Cereal w/ Skim Milk; PB
1000: Baked Sweet Potato "Megachips"
1245: Lox, Tomato, Vermont Sharp Cheddar on Toasted WW Bread; Honey Nut Cheerios
345: Emerald Dry Roasted Walnuts
645: Watermelon; Lox, Tomato, Vermont Sharp Cheddar on Toasted WW Bread; Sweet Potato Chips; Double Chocolate Cookies (tastes like a chocolate scone) mmm...
1000: Salmon; Sweet Potato Chips
1100: Frozen banana w/ Cocoa, Maple Syrup (tastes like Gelato)
1200: Peanuts; Vermont Lite Sharp Cheddar

A repetitive yet tasty day!

2 hrs abs, mamma mia. Doesn't hurt yet. It'll probably be a little sore later, if it's like last time's post-1-hr workout. Ankle's bad from the other day, though. It was the right, but that healed, and then the left had problems and still does.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

July 19

730: Honey Bunches of Oats Cereal w/ Skim Milk; Boiled Peanuts
930: Optimum "Flax Plus" Pumpkin Seed Granola
100: Lox, Tomato, Sharp Cheddar Cheese on WW Toast; Lettuce; Graham Crackers
300: Dry Roasted Walnuts
600: Salmon; Almonds; Egg, Tomato, Sea Stick Dish (hard to describe, but it's amazing, and my mom made it); Broccoli
900: Sweet Potatoes
1000: Watermelon; 75% Light Sharp Cheddar; Seaweed; Cherries; Peanuts

50 laps x 50m = 2500m = 1.55 mi, 1:10:28, 1:25/lap, 1.32 mph

What do I think about during all that time? It's hard to count 50 laps, so I break them up into 3's, doing a free, a breast, a back for each set. Then, I count from 1-16. It's tricky not to jump the gun on a number, and to not go crazy thinking about a single number for 4:15, so I make up a phrase to go with each number. It helps keep the pace, too.

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

July 18

730: Seaweed; Eggs; PB; Watermelon (strange combo, but as separate courses, tastey, plus packed w/ nutrition)
1000: Honey Nut Cheerios
1100: Dry Roasted Walnuts
1200: Hibiscus & Rose Hips Herbal Tea
1245: Lettuce; WW Bread; 75% Lite Sharp Cheddar Cheese
245: Cookies & Cream Blue Bunny Light Ice Cream Bar
545-730: Eggs; Seaweed; Optimum Flax Plus Pumpkin Granola; Banana w/ PB; Almonds; Cherries; Sunflower Seeds; Cabbage... why do I do this to myself? My worst enemy wouldn't do this to me. And then I went running right afterwards. Need a plan to make this not happen again.

So during that run, it was very light when I went out. Besides the clear sky, there was this one cloud that was unlike any I've ever seen. At first glance, I thought it was a huge tornado beginning to form, except it was very white. It wasn't shaped like the normal puffy oval-ish cloud, though, because it was more like a clear-cut vertical wall, a totally unsloped and massive cliff. And the sunlight peaked through, making a strange 3-sectioned gradient. I went on doing the loop, and what started as one or two thunders soon became a more incessant rumbling. As I ran, the clouds changed rapidly and spread across the sky. I was eager to run fast to get back home before I got zapped or something. Got home safely, but woah, that was a crazy cloud.

Oh dear me, I left work sooo tired today, kind of sickness-coming-on feeling. Just wanted to sleep. I think when I'm tired, I take that feeling as a "I'm just in need of food to give me energy" signal, when I think it should be a "I need sleep" signal. But I'm so used to foregoing sleep and doing what's necessary food-wise to keep me up and working because of schoolwork. And it's not all just sleep I need because after exercising, or after staying awake for a while, I'm back to normal. I do think that I need like >6.5 hrs of sleep to stay awake, though, whether it's for school or work, probably even more if it's at school, since I'm so much more active there, having to walk around campus rather than sitting on my butt at work.

2.2-mi loop> 16:31, 7:35

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

July 17

800: Skim Milk; PB Sandwich on WW Bread
1045: Baked Sweet Potatoes
1145: Emerald's Dry Roasted Walnuts
1245: WW Bread; 75% Lite Vermont White Cheddar; Tomato
245: Honey Nut Cheerios; Bigelow Hibiscus & Rose Hips Herb Tea
600: Tofu; Seaweed; Egg; WW Bread w/ Cinnamon & Honey & PB; Cinnamon Graham Crackers
1000: Lox, Tomato, 75% Lite Sharp Cheddar on WW Toast; Watermelon

Rough morning, but besides the spiritual good it builds up, sadness squelches appetite, unlike what stress tends to do.

1.25mi run to gym
20 min Stairmaster
30 min abs/stretch

Monday, July 16, 2007

July 16

730: Uncapped Turkey Sandwich w/ lettuce, tomatoes, mayo, dijon; Toast w/ PB
915: Bigelow Cranberry Apple Tea
1000: Black Rice & Sesame Paste Drink
1100: Walnuts
1230: WW Bread
130: Optima Shake
400: Walnuts
530-700: Salmon; Sunflower Seeds; Graham Crackers; Sweet Potatoes; Spinach Pancake
1030: Cabbage; Milk w/ Cocoa that didn't quite mix in
1200: Egg; some tomato
100: Milk w/ Whey Powder

1 hr abs

Sunday, July 15, 2007

July 15-p

800: Taco Salad of lettuce, refried beans, tomato, sour cream; Peanuts
1145-130: Cantelope; Spinach Pancake; Vanilla Soy Milk; Refried Beans; Toast; Tail Mix of GrapeNuts, Walnuts, Almonds; Dark Chocolate; Vegan Cupcake; Graham Crackers... :(
700: Clif Builder's Bar (cocoa dipped double decker crisp bar)- chocolate mint
1015: Cabbage; Cantelope

I think I need a list of questions to ask myself before starting on another "course" of my meals. Make sure I'm thinking straight (thinking period is more like it).
1. Am I really hungry?
2. Is this really going to fill me, or be the fast lane to yet another quick & dirty course?
3. Do I really want to add this to my already puffy belly?
4. Will this help me in becoming a fitter, faster, leaner, meaner athlete?
To help me remember this, HFBA.

Harry Potter 5 in IMAX 3-D

Saturday, July 14, 2007

July 14

900: Taco Salad of refried beans, tomato, lettuce, salsa, ff sour cream; Skim Milk; Emerald Chocolate Brownie-flavored glazed Walnuts
1230: Canteloupe; Vermont White Cheddar; Toast w/ Hummus
330: Smoothie: Frozen strawberries, Banana, Mango Twist Juice
500: Figs; Papaya; Cucumber topped w/ Lox
700: Chinese Vegetable Blend: Cauliflower, Broccoli, Carrot, Zuchinni; Grilled Salmon; Spicy & Sour Soup: Bamboo, Tofu, Mushrooms, etc.
1000: Blueberries; Smoothie; few Chips w/ Cheese Sauce; bit of Soy Milk; Red Wine
1200: Lite Vermont White Cheddar; Toast

Party for the twins

Friday, July 13, 2007

July 13

715: Omlette w/ mushroom, onion, FF sour cream; Oatmeal spiked w/ trail mix grape nuts + flax; Skim Milk; Soy Nuts (power breakfast)
930: Bit of Go-Lean Crunch
1000: Bigelow Pumpkin Spice Black Tea (aromatic, filling, and keeps me warm!)
1245: Carrots; Lettuce; Tomato; Spicy 3 Pepper Hummus; WW Bread; 75% Lite White Cheddar 300: Peach; Walnuts
600: Toasted Cheese Sandwich w/ sour cream; Carrots & Hummus; Taco Salad (lettuce, beans, ff sour cream, tomatoes, salsa; Trail Mix of Post Selects Apple Harvest Cereal & Walnuts
1000: Trail mix of Cashews, Nature's Path Flax Plus Pumpkin Granola; Tomato; Hummus on WW Toast; 75% Lite White Cheddar
1200: 1/2 Corn on the Cob

2 ChampLoops (the new 2.83mi one)

A taste of the stats the Garmin gives: 5.67 mi, 465Cal, 48:02min, 8:29min/mi average, 6:26 min/mi max (hard to tell how accurate this one is)

Got a like-new (can't tell at all that it was used) Jogalite Cross Training Reflective Vest at Goodwill for $3.49, as opposed to $19.95 like it usually is. Why go to WF and spend that money on a bag of something I know I'll finish at one sitting, regret eating, feel sick with, and have to workout for hours to undo, when I can get cool gear instead?

Spent hours doing facebook graffiti of Lucerne, only to have it crash on me. My mom was giddy with excitement to get me to get the application and draw a pic for her. Her giddiness was priceless.

Finally found the long-lost Pokemon card game decks, rekindled the excitement it caused in middle or hs us (prob middle, I hope middle, but I can't remember), played until 330am w/ N.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

July 12

730: Milk; Hummus on Toast; PB on Toast
1030: Go-Lean Crunch; Peach Green Tea
100: Shrimp; Sweet Potato Wedges; Squash; BBQ Corn Chips; Ice Cream Bar; Dry Roasted Walnuts.... oh regret
600-730: Trail Mix Grape Nuts (malt=tasty) w/ Milk, microwaved (suggestion from the box- it's like sweet, hearty oatmeal); Carrots & Hummus; 75% Lite Vermont White Cheddar; Dark Chocolate; Mashed Frozen Banana w/Milk, Cocoa, spot of Syrup
1200: Mushroom, Carrots, Tomato w/ Athenos Spicy Three Pepper Hummus; 75% Lite Vermont White Cheddar

After eating all of that, I was already feeling regret, but you know me- I looked for more to eat. So I had the jar of roasted sunflower seeds in my hand, and I thought, "I actually feel fine enough in my joints to run. I should probably run. So it's gonna come down to eating even more when I pop open the sunflower seeds or I'll achieve a run." Everything points to doing the run, and I did it, and it was nice, but to think I was so close to eating more even after a day of overeating and then not exercising yet again is a little frightening.

Blazed new loop: 2.87mi>> to boat landing then back to original loop, took 24:30 = 8.32mi/hr

Finished John

This you may find amusing. I got N to play the bass line of the Fresh Prince of Bel-Air theme on the piano while I played the strings part on the violin while alternating between beat voxing and doing the rap. The singing while playing part didn't go so smoothly, with the rapping part suffering. Good laughs, though.

This, not quite as amusing, but still satisfying- learning the dual simplex method (you heard me right. It is fun compared to languishing from boredom.)

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

FAITH: Dog Tags

I just got my dog tags in the mail- I'm excited.

People wear cross necklaces, for different reasons. Some to tell the world they are Christian, others perhaps have their message aimed more towards fellow Christians, like a "you're not alone, brother" thing, and others as a personal reminder of their Lord. I'm most partial towards the last of the three, and I think it's summed up beautifully in the poem "The Cross in My Pocket."

Allow me to explain my tags...

The first one:

The Special Forces dog tag with "De Opresso Liber," perhaps intended to mean "to free from oppression," which is really "Oppressione liberare," as the original Special Forces did in aiding the French Resistance during WWII. Taken in this sense, I want to be part of God's Special Forces, sent into enemy territory to free people from the bondage of sin and bring them out of the darkness that they do not even realize is oppressing them (Plato's Allegory of the Cave-ish). But this isn't freeing by force, since that's not freeing, but giving them a hand, showing them love, telling them of how we were once oppressed but now have found freedom, and pointing them to God.

Literally, the tag says, "free from oppression," and in that literal sense, that's what I hope to be. I say "hope" because 1) I have trouble wearing a cross necklace- partially because of shame I have (the same kind of shame that makes me too embarassed to pray when I eat alone in the dining hall, since I don't want people to think that messed up, fearful, asocial me is what Christians are). I know my selfishness and the terrible things I do and think, and I don't want to drive people away from God with my coldness, which oftentimes is really just fear. Oh, so much fear of man. Like I said in an earlier post, I'm so intimidated by greatness of worldly standards (and also spiritual standards)- looks, intelligence, charisma, athleticism, all of that.

A good friend pointed out, though, "well, what do you think a Christian is 'supposed' to be like?" The answer is not someone perfect, or someone who pretends to be.

2nd Corintians 12: 9-10 >>
9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Praise God for my weaknesses, that he may work in them to show others his mercy and grace, that I may remember my utter dependence on Him, that I may grow over time to be more like my Savior until that glorious day I finally see him as He is. (1st Cor 13:12>> Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.)

The second set:

I have two regular metal tags, which are normally to ID a person.
On one, I have all the ID I need. It's adapted from the FCA creed (see July 1st post).


The second one is to remind me of truths I often forget (especially when the Accuser gets to me) and of things I hope to do and of the truths I should be equipped with to fight the good fight. Check them out some time. They're great. Maybe one day I'll memorize them all.

EPH 6:10-20

July 11

730: Uncapped Turkey Sandwich w/ Lettuce & Horseradish Dijon; Toast w/ PB; Skim Milk
930: Kashi Go-Lean Crunch
1100: few Walnuts; Bigelow Mint Green Tea
1230: 1/2 Uncapped Turkey Sandwich; Lettuce
145: 1/2 Uncapped Turkey Sandwich; PB on Toast
330: Nectarine
545-915: Damage Assessment: Toast w/ Spicy Three Pepper Hummus; Watermelon; Tofu; Squash; Sweet Potato Wedges; Maple and Nut Grape Nuts; Peanuts; Milk; 2 Cupcakes... like 3+ meals' worth
1015: Dark Chocolate

Wwwwhy does Blogger on my laptop think I know Chinese? And there's no "switch to English" button, as far as I can tell. It's a good thing I know my way around the site.

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

July 10

730: Uncapped turkey sandwich w/ lettuce & cranberry mustard (interesting and pretty good blend); bit of milk; toast w/ PB (the "cap")... gonna be good today... Sydney Bristow
930: Go-Lean Crunch
1100: Green tea; bit of Walnuts
130: Salmon; Lettuce; Corn & Peas & Onions
245: Blue Bunny Lite Cookies & Cream Ice Cream Bar
400: Walnuts & Go-Lean
530: FF Coffee Yogurt (delightful); bit of tofu
800: Watermelon; Tofu; Spinach; White WW Bread w/ PB & Berries
930: Mango

I've noticed how, just as with graphs presensting statistical data in a tricky way, these fuel logs can be deceptive. Depending on how meals are spaced out, the actual amounts I ate, the calorie density of the food, it can appear that I ate a lot when I didn't, or that I didn't eat that much when I did.

Sloooow (like 9-min mile) run 2.2-mi loop
Some abs
20 min Stairmaster
Some abs
Cool-down walk on inclined treadmill... hey, not a bad workout

By the end of that loop run, as I was driving to the gym with N (she didn't want to bike...) I was absolutely soaked because it was so hot. My shirt was nearly as saturated as it could be. Sooo hot, and it was like 6pm!

Monday, July 9, 2007

July 9

730: Sweet Mung Bean Soup; Tortilla Chips w/ FF Sour Cream (thin layer makes the chips taste deliciously tangy and creamy and brings out the saltiness of the chips)
930: Go-Lean Crunch
1100: Rest of the Go-Lean w/ a bite of bread
1130: Bigelow Green Tea w/ Peach
130: Salmon; Sweet Potato Fries; Vegan Triple Chocolate Cupcake
400: Walnuts
700: Salmon; Corn & Peas & Onions; PB Sandwich; 2 Vegan Cupcakes; Nectarine; Cucumbers; Walnuts (seemed like a good idea at the time...)
900: Tortilla Chips & FF Sour Cream
1100: Dark Chocolate

Oh dear, it's always like 2 steps forward, one step back. Except the steps back are probably equal or greater than the distance covered by 2 steps forward.

I know enough from experience that I can't purchase oreos anymore, and I've stuck to that faithfully. I think I may need to institute a policy for dark chocolate as well (N was awed by my wrapper collection- ppl collect wine labels and dark choc labels)- only as toppings, not as food themselves. If I want them, go through the trouble (but also enjoy the delight of choc chip pancakes).

Perhaps I should really decide on delayed gratification rewards, instead of "I might go to WF this weekend and get a theoretical something." Okay, this is very delayed, but this week, I'm going to save up for Zen Palate's tofu almond pie. Soooo good.

Pictures of sporty heroes are inspirational, too. The cover of my fitness/nutrition guidebook has Lance Armstrong, Misty May & Kerry Walsh, Michael Phelps, and Mia Hamm. The back has ultimate heroes from my own team. Another inspiration: Sydney Bristow.

Stayed up until 2:30 with craziness w/ N (prob b/c of all the dark choc I ate)- looking at scrapbook, giving her choc, introducing her to the ultimate team; reminiscing about the past's fun things; bothering her; oh, long debate about Russian supremacist art (and how one particular one looked exactly like our guest room's floor while I was working on the scrapbook, with bits of colored paper and paper shavings strewn about... seriously), which unlike I first thought, had nothing to do with race but of the most highly evolved art form, which I consider to be the most highly devolved- she's doing her senior thesis on it while I chose the effect of epidermal pigmentation on something and something (I can't believe I've forgotten... maybe transmittance?) in skin phantoms for photodynamic therapy

Sunday, July 8, 2007

July 8

800: Sweet Mung Bean Soup; Watermelon
1130: Omlette w/ Mushrooms, Peppers, and 75% Lite Cheddar
130: White WW Bread w/ PB
400: Mango; Walnuts
730: Watermelon; Salmon; Sweet Mung Bean Soup
830: Sweet Potato Fries; Soy Nuts

Saturday, July 7, 2007

July 7

Happy 7/7/7!

930: Kashi Go-Lean Crunch w/Skim Milk
1115: Turkey Sausage Patty (small but delectable); Vegan Chocolate Cupcake w/ Homemade Vegan Chocolate Frosting
130: Turkey Breast; Banana
430: 1/2 C Milk
600: Watermelon
700: Papaya; 5-Layer Dip w/ Chips; Sweet Mung Bean Soup
800: Boiled Peanuts; Dried Squid
900: 75% Lite Vermont White Cheddar; Chips
1100: Bit of Dark Chocolate

30 min elliptical

Making vegan chocolate cupcake (CherryBrook Kitchen) w/ homemade vegan chocolate frosting. It had been a big hit at PEF for Sharon's bday. Couldn't believe it was vegan.

6-person a cappella for Prayer of the Children; got hoarse singing sop (E's were killer)

Friday, July 6, 2007

RECIPE: Vegan Chocolate Frosting

1 cup sugar
6 T corn starch
4 T cocoa
1/2 t salt
2 T oil
1 cup water
1/2 t vanilla

1. Mix sugar, cornstarch, salt, and cocoa in a medium sauce pan. Whisk in the water.
2. Heat over medium until it gets thick and starts to boil. Boil for 1-2 minutes (make sure you don't boil too long, or it will set like toffee).
3. Remove from heat and stir in oil and vanilla.
4. Cool and spread on cooled cake.

(from http://www.vegan-food.net/)

July 6

Tough day today- so tough I had no appetite after work. Wanted to either sleep (a way to not feel pain) or exercise (fail-proof endorphin releaser).

730: Optimum Rebound Cereal w/ Skim Milk
1000: Kashi Go-Lean Crunch
1245: Salmon; Tomato; WW Walnut Bread; BBQ Corn Chips
245: Chocolate Brownie Walnuts
730: Watermelon; Salmon; WW Walnut Bread w/ Cinnamon; Onion w/ Tuna
1000: 75% Lite Vermont White Cheddar; Nectarine; Dry Roasted Sunflower Seeds (delicious and buttery tasting)
1100: Many Chocolate Animal Crackers

20 min Stairmaster
45 min Abs

A wonderful conversation on the phone w/ MP.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

July 5

720: Kashi Go-Lean Cruch w/ Flax booster & Skim Milk
930: Kashi Go-Lean
1230: WW Walnut Bread; Vermont White Cheddar; Tomato; few Chocolate Animal Crackers :)
245: Emerald's Onion & Garlic Almonds; Kashi Go-Lean
600: Salmon; Bok Choy; White WW Pancake w/ Choc Chips, few berries and glazed walnuts
800: Nectarine; Dry Roasted Sunflower Seeds
900: Bag of Stacy's Soy Crisps
1100: Chocolate Animal Crackers

Sample size is relatively small, but I think I see a pattern- on days where I don't exercise, I eat way more than I should at night- I keep eating. It could be that eating is something I do, an activity, so if I'm not occupied w/ something else, I focus on hunger or food until I give in and eat, or it could be that exercise suppresses the appetite, or it could be that after exercise, I'm careful not to overeat and undo the hard work I just did.

40min walk to BiLo for roasted sunflower seeds

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

July 4

715: Chocolate Chip Z-Bar
930: Mango; Pepper & Onion Omlette; Spinach
1100: Soy Nuts
1200: Asiago and Parm Wheat Thin Crisps
400: Optimum Rebound Cereal & Skim Milk; Watermelon
800: Peach; Bean Curd Jerky; Peanut Butter Sandwich
1100: 75% Light White Vermont Cheddar; Chocolate Brownie Walnuts

Today was the long-awaited Brickyard Fourth of July Fun Run, a 2-miler (actually 1.93, according to the Garmin). I did a 14:48 last year, thanks to the Frosh 30, but this year, I did a 13:43 (7.07 min/mi- hard to believe I could keep that pace up for 5K's in HS- well, I guess if I were to do max-effort training daily like I did back then, when I had the team, the HS mentality, and my favorite running buddy). No prizes this year, but it's nice to beat an old time by so much.

Shopped at WholeFoods for Go-Lean Crunch & Stacy's Soy Crisps, and at HT for WW Flour & Organic Chocolate Animal Crackers (such a good idea- they're cute and happy); Fireworks at PP w/ the Asian crew; Passed around frisbee before the show

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

July 3

715: Optimum Rebound w/ Skim Milk; Egg; Kelp (not your average breakfast food)
930: Peanuts
1100: Kashi Go-Lean
100: Sauteed Zucchini; Tomato; WW Walnut Bread; 75% Lite Sharp White Cheddar
600: Salmon; Egg; Nectarine; Seaweed; Sauteed Zucchini; WW Walnut Bread; Emerald's Chocolate-Brownie-Flavored Glazed Walnuts (you've gotta try this stuff.)
930: Peanut Butter; Graham Crackers

Monday, July 2, 2007

GEAR GUIDE: Camelbak Backpack

I LOVE ME MY CAMELBAK (well, it's a Jansport, I think, but like Kleenex is used as a synonym for tissue, Camelbak is used for hydration packs.)

Hydration Bladder:
I've never actually used the hydration bladder (why couldn't they come up with some other term for it? haha), which is made by Nalgene, by the way. I'm afraid that I'll contaminate it the first time I use it, and I don't wanna buy those expensive cleaning pills, and I'm not certain of how well you can clean the tubing and bladder with detergent or something. I haven't really had a reason to use it, anyways. It's only necessary if you're doing really long-distance trail running or something (long like 8+ miles - anything shorter, suck it up and just finish the run- it'll make you tougher). With hiking, yeah, maybe, but then you'll probably have lots of other gear, too, and then the pack being on your back will make wearing a Camelbak too impossible, and you'll have a pack to hold a Nalgene anyways. And with going to a sporting event to spectate- kinda pointless- it's not like your hands are occupied or anything. Well, maybe if you don't wanna potentially lose your water bottle. People, should try to avoid bottled water, in my opinion, though. First, it's a waste of money- it's bottled tap water! Second, it's killing the environment. Reuse a bottle, or get a Nalgene- you should be drinking a lot anyways, so go for the big one.

Perfect size! My friends will attest that I wear it everywhere- I even go to the dining hall and leave it on, since it's so small that I need not take it off to sit just fine like it wasn't even there. They may also tell you in secret that I look like a dork, but I tend to not care so much about those things, haha. I don't bring too many books around campus, so I just need to stick that one spiral-bound in there and run out the door. And the smallness of it makes bolting out of the classroom once we're dismissed a cinch. I love it! And it's orange :)

July 2

700: Optimum Rebound Cereal w/ Skim Milk
930: Emerald's Smoked Almonds
1100: Kashi Go-Lean & BBQ Corn Chips
100: Salmon; "Raw Pasta" from last night; WW Walnut Bread; Peach
330: BBQ Corn Chips
600: Garlicy Spinach; Sauteed Zucchini; Egg; Rebound Cereal & Skim Milk; Wheat Thin Crisps
945: Banana & PB; 75% Light Sharp Cheddar; Egg; Rebound Cereal; Peach

Fueling Philosophy-

Books like the Abs Diet and Body for Life have built into their diet plans a "cheat meal." I used to think, "why wreck your perfect week like that? If you're dedicated enough to follow through the rest of the week, why not just go all the way? You probably learn to enjoy eating healthily anyways." But I've come to see that, well, never actually make it through the "perfect" week, since I usually screw up within 4 days because I let myself get too hungry and the body tries to compensate later, or because I gave into stress/boredom traps. It's the principle of delayed gratification that's necessary to promote difficult but good-for-ya behavior in the present, and you need something to look forward to when stress/boredom hits. So I think I'm going to think of some treat- it doesn't have to be a "cheat meal," even. I like the idea of treating myself to a wholesome but more expensive than I would usually allow myself treat from Wholefoods. They have some exotic (relative to regular-people fare), healthy foods that would be fun to try.

Another habit I've discovered is that I tend to finish off whatever bag or box of snack I purchased. Perhaps the best thing to do would be to avoid these traps in the first place. But sometimes, I feel like I need it (that's bad, I know). So I've realized that if I'm going to do it anyways, go for not the bulk package that's cheaper per ounce- so difficult for pragmatic, efficiency-driven me (most of the time) to do- but to spend that extra money to get a smaller, pre-portioned package. When it comes to the $3.50 package of the 1-lb chips vs. the $2.00 package of 7oz Soy Crisps, go for the smaller thing, because 1) I'm going to finish a bag either way, 2) If I go with the chips, I'll have paid more to feel more sick by the end than I would have with the crisps, and I will have downed twice the calories. And lastly, go with what's at least partially good for you. Soy Crisps contain 7g of protein per serving. Protein is a wonderful thing- half of the calories from protein get used up to digest that very protein! And it's more filling, and it aids in muscle-building. A lot of times, when I get into these things, it's because I have a salt craving. I think I'd be content with a load of salt or strong seasoning topping anything. That's where veggies come in.

30min Elliptical (HR 150-160-170-180 bell-curvish, max at 190)
1hr Abs like crazy (shoulders hurt most of all, though, maybe b/c of arm work in the elliptical)
2-mi walk round-trip to and from gym

Sunday, July 1, 2007

July 1-p

845: Optimum Rebound Cereal w/ Skim Milk
1245: WW Penne mixed with Spinachy Greens (fresh from the garden), tomato sauce, and Shaved & Crumbled 75% light White Cheddar
500: Peach; Parm and Asiago Wheat Thin Crisps
830: Egg; Oatmeal w/ Berries; Seaweed
915: "Raw Pasta" (Zucchini sphagetti, tomato, oregano, black pepper)
945: Salmon
1030: Garlicy Spinach; Homemade WW Walnut Bread

2.2 mi Loop time: 16:27- I'm getting slower and slower each week!!!!
At the beginning of the summer, I did a 16:00!!! And times have been getting higher each time without fail. Is it the poundage I've gained? No more ultimate? Sitting around at work rather than walking back and forth around campus? Arrrg. I pushed hard, too, getting the HR to 195 pretty quickly and keeping it there.


I am a Christian first and last. I am created in the likeness of God Almighty to bring Him glory. I am a member of Team Jesus Christ. I wear the colors of the cross.

I am a Competitor now and forever. I am made to strive, to strain, to stretch and to succeed in the arena of competition. I am a Christian Competitor and as such, I face my challenger with the face of Christ.

I do not trust in myself. I do not boast in my abilities or believe in my own strength. I rely solely on the power of God. I compete for the pleasure ofmy Heavenly Father, the honor of Christ, and the reputation of the Holy Spirit.

My attitude on and off the field is above reproach -my conduct beyond criticism. Whether I am preparing, practicing or playing; I submit to God's authority and those He has put over me. I respect my coaches, officials, teammates and competitors out of respect for the Lord.

My body is the temple of Jesus Christ. I protect it from within and without. Nothing enters my body that does not honor the Living God. My sweat is an offering to my Master. My soreness is a sacrifice to my Savior.

I give my all - all of the time. I do not give up. I do not give in. I do not give out. I am the Lord’s warrior -a competitor by conviction and a disciple of determination. I am confident beyond reason because my confidence lies in Christ. The results of my efforts must result in His glory.


This is excellent stuff. The reason it really speaks to me is that I have this problem of placing my identity in being an athlete (washed-out HS one), something that's fleeting (already the effects of aging and the limitations of joints are apparent) and oftentimes inward-focused (although I do very much enjoy using running as a time of meditation or reflecting on the lyrics of songs), rather than on the eternal, the substantive, and the truly satisfying. The reason I was (and am) so into it is because it was 1) results- you get out of it what you put in- everyone's on equal ground to begin with, and the rest is about how determined you are and how hard you're willing to work, which isn't the case with many other things in life where you may just not be cut out for certain things, or you may not have the background/upbringing/opportunities/genes that play a large role in success, 2) I didn't want to be the stereotypical Asian.

Anyways, when you feel insecure, a feeling common to everyone, which is especially strong when you're surrounded by people who are smarter, prettier, more talented, more athletic, wealthier (the list goes on), you try to establish your identity in these things. Try as we may, though, we are not and never will be perfect while we're on this side of heaven, and when we put our trust in those things, we will inevitably meet failure and disappointment, with ourselves and with life. We are doomed to seek new sources of pleasure, only to come to the horrifying realization that those things do not provide fulfillment, either, so you go on to something else. You may get temporary pleasures, or you may find ways of numbing yourself to dull the pains of this world, but even that release is fleeting, and you're still left with emptiness. You groan inside for something more. And there is something more- something more wonderful than we could ever imagine. As C.S. Lewis writes, "…it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased."

The reality of Him is not always obvious. Like how I know these things in my heart, yet when I'm stressed or sad, the food before me gives promises of satisfaction and joy that experience has told me will numb me only temporarily before filling me with regret and a more desperate hunger for fulfillment. Sometimes, though, you stumble upon him- glimpses of Glory in the delicate beauty of dew on bright green blades of grass on a crisp, misty morning (Rom 1:20), or echoes of his voice in a thoughtful word from a friend. Other times, faith is all there is to go on, and though you can't feel it (He is more than a feeling), or see it, you cling to it and search it out because you know that's your only hope, and if you do have a hope, it's Him. So you pray and wait patiently through the night so that you can make it to the morning.